If you feel like dying, all the knowledge I have acquired during over 20 years of suffering is very relevant for you. The knowledge I have can be understood only in these moments, when everything else has lost their meaning.

My years of suffering were also the years I studied, researched and wrote. I endured a long battle against schizophrenia and adapting to the world after discovering the content of the human psychic sphere, following which I spent years working and studying more, all this, without any recognition. I only had enemies who despised me... They hated me because I was too intelligent. Because I told them the truth exactly as it was. Many enemies...

However, I also helped many people throughout this time. Only in the first year of my fight I told everyone that I was sick and I needed psychotherapy. After this year, I've being helping other people.

I won the battle from the beginning, but I had to understand what happened to me while I was fighting against schizophrenia. I was guided by the unconscious that produces dreams that try to cure us from the craziness inherent in the wild part of our psychic sphere.

I learned how to interpret dreams better than Carl Jung, who discovered the unique correct method to translate them. This is because I have been a writer since I was young and my own literature helped me understand the dream symbols better, especially because of the book I wrote after a terrible car accident, which was full of archetypes, which are very meaningful dream symbols. By interpreting them I could decipher many mysteries that Jung could not explain.

I found light because I went to the depths of reality, where all the darkness lives.

I saw how weak the human being is... I saw the meaning of craziness!

This is my story.

After all the experiences I had and after all my studies, I'm the ideal person to guide and encourage everyone who needs help and those who have suicidal thoughts. This is why I told you from the beginning that my knowledge has a very serious meaning for you.

You will not commit suicide because you will have compassion towards those who you will abandon and you won't be able to continue thinking about torturing them so immensely with your suicide. You will cry and think about how horrible your funeral would be for them and the continuation of their lives after your tragic death.

Then you are going to feel ashamed because you had the crazy thought of killing these people with your crazy action if you would really commit suicide and abandon them forever, and yet leaving them with the guilty feeling of having perhaps caused you so much despair or neglected you, due to which you were driven to suicide.

I will help you feel awful for thinking about committing suicide, because this is really barbarous and you will be punished with the consequences of this mistake, if you really committed suicide. I'm not trying to make you change your mind because I'm thinking about society, but because I know very well that after suicide comes hell. You cannot create hell to the others without living in a hell yourself as well.

Your spirit won't stop existing after death, even if your body deteriorates under the earth. Forget all your illusions!

I know what happens after death because the unconscious showed me that aspect in dreams. You may not believe this, but you certainly cannot say that you know what happens to you after your death, especially after a suicide. Therefore, be afraid of committing suicide because you will not get rid of the problems you have now and things will be worse.

Stay here on earth.

I wish to frighten you, because after a suicide comes horror. There will be horror for the people who live around you and care for you, and of course, horror for you, too. You will suffer much more than anyone else if you make this mistake because you will be the one who is responsible for everyone's suffering.

You may imagine that you will go somewhere else, become a nothing, but believe it or not, things won't be as you imagine.

I'm going to explain you what I mean and show you my vision through dream analysis because you must understand what really means the horror of suicide.

I cannot use a friend's case to explain exactly how someone is induced by their anti-conscience to commit suicide, because my help was not given with the intention to use this patient as a case study.

On the other hand, my experiences with this patient are valuable and I must transmit them to those who need the knowledge I acquired then.

I want to tell you that I couldn't bear to go to the apartment of the lady who committed suicide, talk with her husband, interpret his dreams and play for a while with their orphan baby. It was horrible...

I looked at her picture over the fireplace, with her glasses, smiling, and then at her husband taking care of the baby, a kid who would have a sad life for sure, and I simply wanted to disappear from that place! It was more than depressing...

I shall not reveal anything about this case, although if I could tell you exactly why she committed suicide you would really understand everything I mentioned before and much more, but I don't have the right to talk in public about this tragedy.

I only wish to illustrate that you will cause many depressing situations in many others' lives and you will watch everything and suffer as much as you are suffering now, and nothing will change in this regard.

Everything will continue to exist after your death, and you will continue to exist too, but you won't have the power to do anything. You will be a ghost. A ghost following the life of those who are still alive and still can change something, whereas you, the ghost, cannot change anything, but only observe what is happening and suffer without being able to correct anything.

If you were dreaming of paradise, you must remember that the paradise exists only for saints, for good people, for those who have piety in their hearts, and never hurt or kill others with their actions.

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I will help you overcome your problems, feel stronger and face everything with courage, because you have to continue.